hm. i am a white male from norway. i have at times doubted that i should make and say things, just because i feel like enough white men do that already. but i’ve so far come to the conclusion that in stead of being silent because of my priviledges, i can acknowledge and use my priviledge for the better. i consider the malpregnancy project a feminist work. i think it is important that men find, and get to have, a place in feminism. i think men need feminism as much as women.

i’ve wanted to make something that spoke about gender-roles, feminity and masculinity, gender and identity for a long time, but haven’t found a good way until now. i’ve also wanted to find new ways into the subjects of being lost; depression, loneliness, anxiety and self-harm. at the same time i’ve thought a lot about being, or not being, a parent for some time now.

i know i’m not alone in feeling that the earths future is too unclear and uncertain to put new life into it right now.
 
the malpregnancy project came to as a combination of all the above. it feels like the perfect solution to all these thoughts that i have been carrying for years, and it seemed like a good way for me to talk about both things i feel ownership over but also about things i do not neccessarily feel ownership over or know much about, but that i have thought a lot about. 

i wanted to digitize the malpregnancy project for several reasons, but mostly because i want to try and make things that are easily available and i think internet is a good way to do so. also internet, i think, has become the number one reading platfrom for many, included myself, and although i prefer the physicality of a book i believe this new way of reading ought not to be frowned upon, but be accepted if not encouraged whole-heartedly.

johan gonzalez 2019